have you ever thought like this?

Life has always been a complex sum for each and every person coming on to this earth. And it always has something new and surprising for you every day and every moment. Sometimes I really wonder is there actually any guiding force behind our life? Or is it pure and unintentional coincidence that the miracles in our life takes place. Is there really anyone who takes care of your thoughts and your wishes. When I pray at night before sleeping or when I pray after getting up in the morning, does anyone actually listen to them? When in a very tough situation I start praying silently to make things possible and easier, does anyone pay heed to them. And if there is someone like this then how does that person exist? I mean is that listener actually a person? Or is "he" a power. And if "he" is a power how did "he" come into existence?Oh it's a real complex thought that keeps perplexing my mind. Sometimes I can feel a power inside me that makes me stronger and answers my search for my God. But still sometimes when I keep on praying and i don't know who is actually listening to them I feel scared. As if I am lost in a big sea and I don't know what's at the end; and I keep on praying for someone to help me and to rescue me but I am totally unaware of who is going to come and hold my hands and lift me up. And when I get scared my mind refuses to accept that there is any supernatural power guiding us; that everything that happens is pure coincidence and that human is the prime force behind the world. But somewhere I can't stop in believing a hidden force that is helping me through all these tough ways and that is listening to my prayers and finally making me what I am. I know these questions are coming just because my mind is young and inquisitive. Once I grow old maybe I'll be compelled to believe blindly in God as any other person. And then I will laugh at my children thinking this way as my parents do and try to convince them with the same. Till then let me go on asking.